UNHAPPY OR HAPPY?

I DONT KNOW WAT TO DO ANYMORE I SEE U ONLY SOMETIMES BUT THEN IT FEELS AS IF I SEE YOU EVERY DAY...I HATE FEELING LONELY BUT THEN I LIKE BEING LEFT ALONE...I FEEL HAPPY SEEING YOU BUT THEN I DONT BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THE TIME IS FLYING PASS SO FAST... AND I KNOW THAT THE TIME TO SAY GOODBYE IS COMING CLOSE...I LUV HEARING YOUR VOICE OVER THE PHONE FOR HOURS...BUT THEN WHEN DA TIME COMES TO HANG UP I NOTICE DAT IM NOT LUVIN THE MOMENT NOMORE...UGH! WHY DO WE LIVE IN SEPERATE WORLDS! YOU LIVE SO FAR AWAY! SOMETIMES I WISHED WE NEVER MET BUT THEN I PUNISH MYSELF FOR EVEN THINKIN OF DAT...IM SORRY FOR EVEN WRITING IT DOWN...I REALLY MISS YOU BOO...AND IM HAPPY BUT UNHAPPY...HAPPY FOR HAVING YOU AND UNAHPPY FOR HAVING YOU SO FAR AWAY...