its been so long since i've written on here and i guess i've been busy or something but i have nowhere to turn to, to let everything go... i feel like i'm drowning in a cup halfway filled of water i cant breathe and can get out, each time i swear the truth i just get denied. its hard to look at the positive side of things now, maybe as i'm getting older i get more expectations and responsibilities but thats not the case. i want him to believe me but he wont, and that hurts... i'm tired of crying so wont no more, well i hope i don't because that just shows weakness. i'm not hiding nothing from him i said it 8 times today, probably more later don't know. he told me things today that caused pain in my chest my heart..."go do you ill do me" never again did i thought i would hear those words again... but i did. im tired of all of this you did you didnt do your lying your this your that... fuck its sooo pathetic... but ill just try to shake it away and avoid shit like that with a smile no biggy just another damn bump on the road...