IM GLAD YOU DIDNT LET ME GO...I ANSWERED THE PHONE AND I NOTICED SUMTHIN WRONG WIT HIS TONE IT WAS SAD MAD AND CONFUSING I KNEW SUMTHIN WAS WRONG... HE DENIED IT BUT THEN IN A FEW MINUTES AFTER I ASKED HIM AGAIN IF SUMTHIN WAS WRONG HE BURST OUT SAYING THINGS I NEVER KNEW HE WOULD SAY...I WONT SAY EXACTLY WAT HE SAID BCUZ I SWEAR ILL BREAK IN TEARS AGAIN...HE JUS WANTED TO LET ME GO BCUZ IT WAS THE BEST FOR ME BUT NO HE SAID HE DIDNT WANT TO HURT ME AND HE WAS DOIN IT THERE IN HIS WORDS HIS VOICE...I PLEADED FOR HIM TO STOP...BUT IT WASNT WORKING MY CHEEKS WERE FLOODED BY A RIVER OF TEARS AND PAIN...MY CHEST WAS ACHING THATS WHEN I KNEW THAT I REALLY LOVED THIS BOY...FLASH BACKS STARTED COMIN THREW MA HEAD OF ME AND HIM TOGETHER LAUGHIN KISSING AND HUGGIN I COULDNT THINK STRAIGHT I THOUGHT HE WAS GIVING UP ON LOVE WAT GOT TO ME WAS THAT THE DAY BEFORE HE TOLD ME THAT HE LOVED ME AND HE WASNT GOING TO LEAVE ME...AND HE WAS TRYING TO DO IT RITE THERE AND THEN I WAS DISAPOINTED I COULDNT BREATHE I WANTED TO SHUT HIM UP BUT IT SEEMED LIKE HE DIDNT HAVE AN OFF BUTTON...THEN I HUNG UP AND PROMISED TO CALL BAK I TALKED TO MA MOM AND SHE TOLD ME THAT IF HE LOVED ME HE WOULDNT WORRY BOUT THE DISTANCE HE WOULD WORK THROUGH THIS...ECT...THEN I TXT HIM TOLD HIM TO THINK BOUT IT AND I WOULD CALL HIM TOMARO...BUT HE SAID NO...I WAS SCARED HE WOULDNT CHANGE HIS MIND I WAS SCARED HE WOULD STILL HAVE THE SAME IDEA...I WAS TERRIFIED OF LOSING HIM...I COULDNT PICTURE MYSELF WITOUT HIM...I WANTED HIM IN MY LIFE...HE CALLED ONCE I DIDNT ANSWER I WAS STILL CAUGHT UP IN MY TEARS AND THOUGHT ABOUT BEING WITH OUT HIM...HE CALLED THE SECOND TIME AND I ANSWERED...BCUZ I HAD FAITH IN HIM I TRUSTED HIM... WHEN I ANSWERED HE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS SORRY HE DIDNT KNOW WHAT HE WAS THINKING OR SAYING THOSE WORDS STARTED HEALING MY BROKEN HEART...HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME AND I BELIEVED HIM...I WAS STILL SHAKING THOUGH I WAS STILL IN SHOCKED I TRIED TO PINCH MYSELF TO SEE IF I WAS DREAMING BUT NO I WASNT...EVERYTHING DID HAPPENED BUT NOW I WAS RELIEVED THAT IT WAS OVER...BUT NOW IM WORRIED...WORRIED...I FEEL AS IF IN ANY GIVING MOMENT HE WILL START SAYING THOSE DEADLY WORDS...BABY IF YOU SEE THIS I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU IN MY LIFE AND YOUR NOW APART OF IT...DONT LEAVE ME BABY...JUST DONT DO IT NOW...JUST DONT DO IT...THIS CAN LAST FOREVER...LIKE THEY SAY TRUE LOVE CAN LAST FOREVER...AND I WANT THIS FOREVER...LETS MAKE THIS LAST CHIKITO...-KAREN A.Q.
Monday, August 10, 2009
IM GLAD YOU DIDNT LET ME GO...
IM GLAD YOU DIDNT LET ME GO...I ANSWERED THE PHONE AND I NOTICED SUMTHIN WRONG WIT HIS TONE IT WAS SAD MAD AND CONFUSING I KNEW SUMTHIN WAS WRONG... HE DENIED IT BUT THEN IN A FEW MINUTES AFTER I ASKED HIM AGAIN IF SUMTHIN WAS WRONG HE BURST OUT SAYING THINGS I NEVER KNEW HE WOULD SAY...I WONT SAY EXACTLY WAT HE SAID BCUZ I SWEAR ILL BREAK IN TEARS AGAIN...HE JUS WANTED TO LET ME GO BCUZ IT WAS THE BEST FOR ME BUT NO HE SAID HE DIDNT WANT TO HURT ME AND HE WAS DOIN IT THERE IN HIS WORDS HIS VOICE...I PLEADED FOR HIM TO STOP...BUT IT WASNT WORKING MY CHEEKS WERE FLOODED BY A RIVER OF TEARS AND PAIN...MY CHEST WAS ACHING THATS WHEN I KNEW THAT I REALLY LOVED THIS BOY...FLASH BACKS STARTED COMIN THREW MA HEAD OF ME AND HIM TOGETHER LAUGHIN KISSING AND HUGGIN I COULDNT THINK STRAIGHT I THOUGHT HE WAS GIVING UP ON LOVE WAT GOT TO ME WAS THAT THE DAY BEFORE HE TOLD ME THAT HE LOVED ME AND HE WASNT GOING TO LEAVE ME...AND HE WAS TRYING TO DO IT RITE THERE AND THEN I WAS DISAPOINTED I COULDNT BREATHE I WANTED TO SHUT HIM UP BUT IT SEEMED LIKE HE DIDNT HAVE AN OFF BUTTON...THEN I HUNG UP AND PROMISED TO CALL BAK I TALKED TO MA MOM AND SHE TOLD ME THAT IF HE LOVED ME HE WOULDNT WORRY BOUT THE DISTANCE HE WOULD WORK THROUGH THIS...ECT...THEN I TXT HIM TOLD HIM TO THINK BOUT IT AND I WOULD CALL HIM TOMARO...BUT HE SAID NO...I WAS SCARED HE WOULDNT CHANGE HIS MIND I WAS SCARED HE WOULD STILL HAVE THE SAME IDEA...I WAS TERRIFIED OF LOSING HIM...I COULDNT PICTURE MYSELF WITOUT HIM...I WANTED HIM IN MY LIFE...HE CALLED ONCE I DIDNT ANSWER I WAS STILL CAUGHT UP IN MY TEARS AND THOUGHT ABOUT BEING WITH OUT HIM...HE CALLED THE SECOND TIME AND I ANSWERED...BCUZ I HAD FAITH IN HIM I TRUSTED HIM... WHEN I ANSWERED HE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS SORRY HE DIDNT KNOW WHAT HE WAS THINKING OR SAYING THOSE WORDS STARTED HEALING MY BROKEN HEART...HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME AND I BELIEVED HIM...I WAS STILL SHAKING THOUGH I WAS STILL IN SHOCKED I TRIED TO PINCH MYSELF TO SEE IF I WAS DREAMING BUT NO I WASNT...EVERYTHING DID HAPPENED BUT NOW I WAS RELIEVED THAT IT WAS OVER...BUT NOW IM WORRIED...WORRIED...I FEEL AS IF IN ANY GIVING MOMENT HE WILL START SAYING THOSE DEADLY WORDS...BABY IF YOU SEE THIS I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU IN MY LIFE AND YOUR NOW APART OF IT...DONT LEAVE ME BABY...JUST DONT DO IT NOW...JUST DONT DO IT...THIS CAN LAST FOREVER...LIKE THEY SAY TRUE LOVE CAN LAST FOREVER...AND I WANT THIS FOREVER...LETS MAKE THIS LAST CHIKITO...-KAREN A.Q.
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awwh Karen ; that is so cute :)
Hope love keeps ya going <3
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